Becoming

Tonight at 6:00pm we begin the first of our Spiritual Formation Retreats. 12 of us will spend the week-end reflecting on what it means to be a child of God while making space for God to speak to us in ways that our schedules don’t often allow. I have a deep conviction that times like these are necessary in the spiritual life. What Jesus draws us to is deep change, and when we live our lives on the surface we often can’t even see the areas that He wants to transform.

“It is, however, alarmingly easy to fail to discern the ever-present nudges of the Spirit to become all we are meant to be. The culture of family and society and the rhythms of our lives lull us into a sleep of complacency within the small, safe places we have arranged for ourselves. Seekers settle for being finders, even when what is found is so much less than what their spirits call them toward. Being and becoming are both routinely sacrificed on the altar of doing. The gentle but persistent heartbeat of our deep longings to find our true place in God is gradually drowned out by the cacophony of superficial desires, and we are left with a small ego-self rather than an awakening self that is ever becoming in the Spirit.”
— David G. Benner - Spirituality and the Awakening Self: The Sacred Journey of Transformation

So we get away. We make space for silence and reflection. We read the text, pray, wait, and listen. We allow the questions that we want to avoid to stand beside us and wait for our answers. And what will be the result? Only God knows.

There’s the problem for me. I want to know. I want the week-end to be a time that each participant looks back to as a pivotal point in their journey. I want bang for my buck, return on investment. But the truth is that God will do what God will do, not perform for me what I want from Him. That means that on the retreat I am leading I too am a participant. I have to let go of what I want and let God probe around in my life in the areas that He wants to touch. That may look like “success” or it may look like a royal waste of time. Either way the goal is to make space for God to do what He wishes. That’s the pathway to “becoming” what God has made us to be. With Him nothing is ever a waste of time.

Our next retreat comes up in January. Please contact the church office (info@ gbchope.com or (604) 869-5524) or send me a message here for more information or to register.

Jeff KuhnComment